To My First Born, My Favorite Little Fella

To my first born, my favorite little fella. My curly headed, brown-eyed, energetic, sweet, loving, hilarious little boy. I am so sorry. I’m sorry that I’m not the mommy I could be, nor the mommy I should be. I’m sorry we haven’t played like we used to. I’m sorry I hurt all the time. I’m […]

“You Gainin’ Weight, Kristen.”

Her: “Kristeeeen! My friend!” Me: “Hey! What’s up?” -smiles- Her: “Come here! Let me give you a hug!” I feel reluctant and instantly tense up… We hug. And I know what’s about to come. Her: “You gainin’ weight.” Me: “Yes. Yes I am.” -smiles- Her: “It’s okay, though.” Me: “Yea, well, since you say it’s […]

Frustration Leads To Loving You More

Being on the move is one thing. It’s exciting. Thrilling! Every inch toward a piece of his own independence is milestone worthy, and we have dozens of pictures, even though he’s never gone very far at all. Well, unless he’s in his walker. That’s a completely different story. With his arms held high, as if […]

I’m Not Weighing Myself Again

As women, we grow up learning all about pregnancy. We watch the bellies of our moms, aunts, sisters, and friends grow and grow and grow. We see them sick. We see them tired. We see their ankles swell. Pregnancy is a time of massive one-uppers. It shouldn’t be a contest, but it is. Everyone wants […]

It’ll All Be Okay

Some days I just want to scream and pull my hair out. Today is one of those days. Since I have enough hair falling out on its own due to hormones, I figured I’d skip the pulling and substitute it with crying. That’s my go-to. I cry when I’m happy, when I’m sad, angry, mad, […]